So. My grandmother passed away a few days ago and I was really close to her and... I couldn't attend her funeral because my passport is at the embassy for some administrative purposes and that SUCKS because I didn't even have a chance to say good bye and I'm the only one.
I feel so guilty now when I laugh or do anything because the rest of my family is at the funeral feeling completely sad and I'm not there to go through this with them? Also today, I went to the Tanglin Club with Jennifer and this lady came up to me and started insulting me. This was how our conversation went:
Me: Jen, let's go get that cab
Lady: Did you insult me?
Me: What, no?
Lady: How dare you insult us expatriates?
Me: I said I did NOT.
Lady: Yes you did, I understand Tagalog and a lot of other Asian languages and I understand what you said, you insulted us expats because you thought I was gonna steal your cab, didn't you? You do know that this is an expat club?
Me: Excuse me, I said I did not insult you. My dad is white y'know. And sorry I wasn't speaking Tagalog, I was speaking ENGLISH
Lady: I have 2 Vietnamese kids I adopted, 1 Indonesian! I KNOW what you said!
Me: THAT'S GREAT. Then tell me what I said!
Lady: Don't be so disrespectful
Me: I'm not being disrespectful! You earn respect by respecting others first, are you respecting me? And if you're so sure of what I said then tell me what you heard! (by this time a mini crowd had formed but I was like, a bitch on a mission)
Lady: You're half white, RESPECT YOUR HERITAGE
Me: I DO RESPECT MY HERITAGE BUT I WON'T LET YOU ACCUSE ME OF SOMETHING I DIDN'T SAY
Lady: You know what you said (this bitch on drugs)
Me: Okay then tell me what language do I speak?
Lady: Vietnamese
Me: HAHAHAHAHAHA (Jen started laughing too)
Lady: Well then I think Thai. Don't laugh at me!
Me: Excuse me, can you stop? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU I DIDN'T INSULT YOU OR YOUR WHITENESS FOR CHRIST'S SAKE I AM HALF WHITE AND I AM AN EXPAT OKAY
Then this bitch walks away and sits next to Auntie Nam(Jen's mum) and was like "Oh I can understand Thai I have adoptive kids your daughter is so disrespectful you should teach her some manners" to which Auntie Nam was like, "You just made a fool of yourself by arguing with a 16 year old of something she didn't do. Shut up and go away."
The lady thought I was Auntie Nam's kid by the way.
But seriously though, the audacity of this bitch! I was already feeling extremely down and she just made me, like burst. Then I came back to Jen's house(I'm staying with them for the time being) and called my mother who is in Thailand and burst out crying-- In anger and pity that my mother wasn't there to cheer me on. My mum says she's gonna hunt down that bitch when she's back though so good.
And.. I miss my mother SO SO MUCH. Everything just feels really bad now and I just can't wait for my mum to get home so she can stroke my hair and tell me everything's going to be okay because mothers know best. So here I am, using Jen's MacBook Pro(which I really like hee), sitting in the bed typing and she's beside me sleeping and I'm starting to feel better again.
Oh and at the end of the argument, Jen said to me: You have balls man. I would've just walked away.
Hey, that's a high compliment.
